For the First Time.

Happiness is overflowing through my veins. The world hasn’t changed and I haven’t changed. It’s just something in my heart that was suddenly revived. There is a sparkle in my eyes that I’ve never seen before. I have this scary urge pulling my heart in different directions. On the chords of fear and love it’s playing the most intense feelings. A burning fire is dancing inside me, a beautiful symphony it has created.

I was afraid that this would happen to me, I was afraid that when you love me right I’d love you back. But I realized that this fear has been keeping me from loving you. It has been keeping me in the dark, and I was frightened that someday the light would find me. Now I live in broad daylight. You awakened feelings inside me that I forgot I had. You soothed the fires of sadness; you have fixed the ruins left inside me. You provide me with the strength I need to survive. You simply reminded me that I was given a heart for a reason.

For the first time in my life I know what it feels like to stare at someone and smile for no reason. For the first time in my life I understand how to smile out of happiness and not artificiality. For the first time I feel like I belong somewhere. When I am talking to you I feel your voice wrapped around me, protecting me. It feels as if I started feeling against my will, and I can’t thank you enough for forcing me to feel. I can’t thank you enough for reviving a dead heart.